Paul McCartney has opened up about the difficulty of dealing with John Lennon’s “senseless” death 40 years on.
In an interview with CBS (via NME), Paul McCartney revealed that John Lennon’s death is still something he is “not sure” he has processed.
“It’s very difficult for me, and I occasionally will have thoughts and sort of say, ‘I don’t know, why don’t I just break down crying every day?’ Because it’s that bad.”
When asked whether he did indeed sometimes cry about Lennon’s death, McCartney replied: “Not every day, you know? There will be times that I just have memories and just think, ‘Oh my God, it was just so senseless.’”
On top of his struggles with Lennon’s death, McCartney also touched on how “amazed” he is by The Beatles’ enduring legacy.
“[I think it’s] something to do with the structure of the song,” he said.
“There’s no spare stuff that shouldn’t be in there. It’s the exact amount of stuff that should be on that record. But I am amazed at how it keeps going. I’m amazed, maybe I’m amazed.”
The CBS interview certainly isn’t the first time McCarney has spoken out about Lennon in recent weeks.
“I rerun the scenario in my head… Very emotional. So much so that I can’t really think about it. It kind of implodes. What can you think about that besides anger, sorrow?” he said.
“Like any bereavement, the only way out is to remember how good it was with John. Because I can’t get over the senseless act. I can’t think about it. I’m sure it’s some form of denial. But denial is the only way that I can deal with it,” he concluded.